my tummy hurts... :(

today has just been a sort of blah day. i've felt a little sick for most of the morning and afternoon. and then i got into an argument with mike. and i got pissed. and i'm still pissed. and i just wonder if i'll ever get to the point where i can move past him, stop talking to him, and stop caring what he thinks. cuz i know i still have way more invested than he does. i'm such a stinkin girl.

maybe i should rethink getting together with him in NY. it'll be awkward and i'll probably be pretty disappointed. I just wish he would tell me EXACTLY how he feels about me so that I wouldn't keep trying to read too much into everything.